Sigh.
I need love like nobody’s buisness. If I had some confidence, maybe I could find it.
I saw this movie, and now I’m a huge Michael Cera Fan.
no pun-intended
And I’ve realized that this blog is my alter-ego. My alternate mindset trying to kick me out of my comfort-zone (a term, I’ve been hearing too much of lately.) But, that’s what’s wrong with me, I’ve gotten to comfortable in my cushy mindset where everything is fine, I’ll be fine and everything will fall in to my lap.
The only thing this cushy mindset has given me is a cushy body, all over. And the only thing falling into my lap is crumbs. I Know there’s a happier, healthier me in here, I’m just hoping this can help that me, climb out.
Thanks for the support, I wasn’t expecting it, and I wasn’t expecting how hopeful it could make me.
sincerely,
-FP
Q
you can do it! there are lots of obese people that have become skinny. and if ur a guy im sure itd be alot easier than girls.. anyway. What kind of eating patterns do you have atm? have you eaten small or less for a couple of days to shrink your stomach (inside)? : )
A
Oh my goodness, you cannot have any idea how much your words mean to me, this has really changed my mood abruptly. :)
and right now, the only thing I’m doing is trying to cut out big portions, drink water (and not much else) I’m under a lot of stress right now, so it’s hard. Really hard, but I’m trying: Thanks again :]
Q
This isn't so much a question as it is a statement. I wish you luck on your journey in weightloss and a healthier life. And of course, keep your head up. (:
A
I was just in a very dark place in my head, very dark. And you have no Idea how much I needed this. Thank you so much. I mean that with all my heart.
I just want to look nice one day, for me.
As of right now
I weigh:
304.2 lbs
*sigh*
Skinny, and even just average sized people really don’t know how easy they have it. They don’t have to go around feeling self-conscious the whole day, hating what they see in every reflection they see. On the verge of tears (or at least feeling like that) all day knowing you’re the fattest person in the room. Possibly even the building.
This debilitating, crushing self loathing is probably I don’t have some of the things I want in life, like say:
- Confidence
- Fashion sense
- love-for-myself
- a girlfriend
- a job
- true happiness
and yeah, it’s possible to have these things when you’re fat, I guess, but I can’t get to them.
I need help, and when it boils down to it, I’m the only one with the power to change myself. I really hope and pray that this is the beginning of a long, probably painful, frustrating journey that in the end makes me as happy as I think I deserve to be.
-F.P.
